Former Australian tennis star Jelena Dokic revealed she almost took her own life in late April as she was on the verge of jumping off her balcony. The past six months haven’t been easy for Dokic, who found herself in an extremely dark place in late April.
Dokic, who retired in 2014 and now works as a tennis commentator, revealed there were many days at work when she would simply go to bathroom and start crying. “28.04.2022-I almost jumped off my 26th floor balcony and took my own life,” Dokic wrote in an Instagram post.
“Will never forget the day. Everything is blurry. Everything is dark. No tone, no picture, nothing makes sense – just tears, sadness, depression, anxiety and pain. The last six months have been tough. It’s been constant crying everywhere.
From hiding in the bathroom when at work to wipe away my tears so that nobody sees it to the unstoppable crying at home within my four walls has been unbearable.”
Dokic: Will never forget the day I wanted the pain to stop
“Constant feelings of sadness and pain are just not going away and my life has been shattered,” Dokic added.
“I blame myself, I don’t think I am worthy of loving and I am scared. I also know that I still have so many things to be grateful for and then I start to hate myself because by feeling this way I feel like I am not grateful because I mustn’t be since I want to end it all.
Such a vicious cycle in my head. The result:almost jumping off my 26th floor balcony on April 28th. Will never forget the day, I just wanted the pain and the suffering to stop. I pulled myself of the edge, don’t even know how I managed to do it.
Getting professional help saved my life.” Also, Dokic vowed to keep fighting and to come out even stronger from this experience.
