Bradley Cooper On Past Cocaine Addiction, Low Self-Esteem

During a recent appearance on the Smartless podcast, Bradley Cooper opened up about getting started in Hollywood and the drug addiction he battled with early on in his career.

Bradley recalled a time where he used mean humor to cover up his lack of self-esteem and his desire to fit in. After having dinner in 2004 with Will and another friend, Will called Bradley out for being an “asshole.” That moment changed everything for Bradley.

“And that was, like, the first time I ever realized I had a problem with drugs and alcohol,” Bradley said. “And it was Will saying that to me, and I’ll just never forget it.”

“I was so lost and I was addicted to cocaine — that was the other thing,” Bradley said about his 20s while trying to make a name for himself in Hollywood. “I severed my Achilles tendon right after I got fired-slash-quit Alias” and had “zero self-esteem.”

The Nightmare Alley star went on to admit that he had the “benefit” of this happening when he was 29. The now 47-year-old actor felt like he was “back in high school” when he joined Alias. “I could not get into any clubs, no girls wanted to really look at me. I was totally depressed.”

“It wasn’t really until The Hangover. I was 36 when I did The Hangover, so I got to go through all those things before fame even played into my existence on a daily level. So all that happened before any of that.”

Bradley said he made “a major breakthrough” at age 29 to 33/34. He finally felt like he was able to feel more comfortable in his own skin, “stand in front of somebody, and breathe, and, listen and talk.”

He credits Will for giving him the wake-up call he needed: “But Will is the reason — he took that risk of having that hard conversation with me, in like July of 2004, that put me on a path of deciding to change my life.”

As for his self-esteem, Bradley admitted learning to like himself is a “lifelong exploration.” It wasn’t until a year-and-a-half ago, that he decided that while he “loves so much of [his] life” he still felt “so lost.” So he started seeing a new therapist that helped him work through those feelings.

“Today I can sit in front of you and say I actually do have self-esteem not related to any outside thing. I didn’t have have that for 46 years. It’s taken me quite a long time to do that.”